This visit home was all I needed to make perfect sense of my life. When I was at college I was so miserable in my head but really I wasn’t. I am more than happy to have met all the people I have and to be doing something for me and only me. I missed my family and all the wonders San Diego has to offer but I realized I am growing up. It’s kind of like living in a dorm is like being at camp and I finally got home. Well, this isn’t camp and I truly have been working hard to keep my grades up. I realized that love is something that is forever. Forever as in it is always within you but not as in it lasts forever. Maybe one day I will find that but I was surely mistaken before. I lost who I was just for a feeling of being loved. I found myself again in college and it turned out I wasn’t liked for who I was. Given, college did change me quite a bit. I never really cared what people thought and you would know this if you know me personally but secretly I was eating myself up inside. Now, I just don’t give a fuck. I know who I am, what I like, and what I want. Nothing else matters to me right now. I want to find that one thing that really catches my interest. I want to care about something that will treat me right. I deserve the world and I know that. No more playing with boys hearts and leading people on. I am a selfish person, I know this. Eventually I’ll grow out of it but for now I think it’s okay. I know right from wrong and I think that’s good enough. I am forever excited for future, don’t let me down.