This is my first Halloween with my mom. As an 18 year old this might not seem like a big deal but it really is. A lot of my childhood memories contain things that have to do with Halloween. My mom would always decorate the house and make it "creepy." I thought I was friends with some of the decorations and I would even dance with them. My mom would always dress up. Usually she would be a witch. She'd go all out and even make her face green. One year I followed in her foot steps and also decided to put tons of makeup on so I can look like a real witch. Sadly, I got pink eye. Therefore I never did it again... I remember all the yummy deserts she'd make and theme them with Halloween. It made my little brother and I so happy.

Then we grew older and started to not want to do the whole Halloween thing with our mom but rather with our friends. I just didn't think it was that big of a deal. Sometimes I even just stayed home and eventually my mom stopped decorating the house. I know this must have been devastating to her. I realize this now that I don't have her here. It's really sad actually.

I’ve learned to stop being so negative about this situation. I wanted to leave San Diego for college because I wanted to be away from my family. Not because I dislike them or because they do everything for me but I did it because I wanted my parents to know I can do things myself like I’ve done my whole life. This decision was made early on and I didn’t change my mind all through high school. I wanted to do something for me and I did. The decision itself wasn’t that hard but then my life changed. I met a boy I am madly in love with and I told him I wasn’t going to change my mind just for him. My decision was also made before I knew he was the one for me.

Now that I’m in college I miss my family and I miss my boyfriend even more. I talk to my mom everyday and my sister sends me pictures of my niece and nephew which makes my days. I’m always talking to my boyfriend and he sends me cute letters and presents. I couldn’t be more appreciative of him and my family. I can’t wait to go home and see them.

And now three months into college I’m actually starting to like it. I know how much I need to study, I know what I need to do to get good grades, I know how to eat when I’m hungry, I know which people I like and which ones I don’t, I know how to take care of myself, and I know how to be happy. I’m having fun and I’ve made friends that reminds me a lot of everything I love. I guess I wasn’t open to being friends with people in the beginning and I just didn’t care. I was afraid of not knowing anyone since I have never experienced it before but I’m starting to understand why I made this decision in the first place.

College isn’t how it looks on tv.

I have came to accept the distance between Cristian and I. I know everything is going to workout and we are going to be together no matter what. The little fights mean nothing to me. I can get over them and know it’s simply because we miss each other. I can’t wait to see him and I just wish all the people I’ve became close with will get to know him and he will get to know them. He really means the world to me. I just hope he knows how much I miss and love him.

Verizon, a cell phone company, has reported on Friday that both their profit and customer growth had slowed. There is buzz about this since the company's profit had dropped 25 percent. To me that sounds like a lot of money but still they manage to hold onto their title of the "nations largest wireless carrier."

Personally, I feel the reason this is happening is because Verizon wireless claimed that they were too coming out with an iPhone for quite some time now, and nothing has happened. I just think that the iPhone phenomenon isn't something that is going to go away. More and more people are buying and using iPhones now. I feel that Verizon wireless is a reliable service and that the phones are nice but not until they come out with the iPhone will they receive the amount of customers they'd like.

On the other hand, Verizon is doing very well in their smartphone products. Those have been selling and can do most of what an iPhone can. These phones come from the Droid franchise that is Google based. These phones have became much more popular in only a year.

WORTHAM, JENNA. "Verizon's Profit Drops 25% in Quarter as Growth Slows - NYTimes.com." The New York Times - Breaking News, World News & Multimedia. N.p., n.d. Web. 23 Oct. 2010. .

And my dreams were crushed yesterday when I came to realize that there were only balcony seats left...

Yesterday I was more than excited to go to my first real concert in San Francisco. It was cold and I was fine with that. We had to wait in line for what seemed like forever and I was fine with that too. Only to get to the front of the line and realize that there was only balcony seats left. I figured there would still be a way for me to still be able to get to the standing floor, but there sadly wasn't. Frustrated from the situation my friend and I walked past all the excited 12 year old girls in disgust and we just wanted to find a magical way to get in.

Rather than staying mad we decided to go to Japan Town and enjoy the night. We took Japanese pictures, bought delicious treats, and got lost in the parking lot. Overall we had a pretty good time from previously in the night.

We learned that if we ever want to go to concerts now we won't decided that the last minute. Plus there are plenty of other times to see Never Shout Never in the future. I'm not too worried about it.

Tutor

It is about midway through the semester and I am not happy with the grade I have in Human Anatomy. I have found this class to be tedious and difficult to a point where I dislike it, but since I want and need a good grade I decided to get a tutor. I had been planning on doing so after the first test but I never got around to it. A friend of mine pushed me into it and I am very thankful for that.

Yesterday was my first meeting with my tutor, and after our session everything started to make a lot more sense in my head. I was also surprised at how much material I actually know already. I had already been studying because I really do want to get my grade up and I feel that I can do better on my test now that I have a tutor.

I would encourage anyone who isn't doing as good as they know they can to get a tutor. An extra hour a week can make all the difference. It might seem like another class but I think it can be beneficial. With more studying and other sessions with my tutor I hope to do good on my next Anatomy exam.