I’ve learned to stop being so negative about this situation. I wanted to leave San Diego for college because I wanted to be away from my family. Not because I dislike them or because they do everything for me but I did it because I wanted my parents to know I can do things myself like I’ve done my whole life. This decision was made early on and I didn’t change my mind all through high school. I wanted to do something for me and I did. The decision itself wasn’t that hard but then my life changed. I met a boy I am madly in love with and I told him I wasn’t going to change my mind just for him. My decision was also made before I knew he was the one for me.

Now that I’m in college I miss my family and I miss my boyfriend even more. I talk to my mom everyday and my sister sends me pictures of my niece and nephew which makes my days. I’m always talking to my boyfriend and he sends me cute letters and presents. I couldn’t be more appreciative of him and my family. I can’t wait to go home and see them.

And now three months into college I’m actually starting to like it. I know how much I need to study, I know what I need to do to get good grades, I know how to eat when I’m hungry, I know which people I like and which ones I don’t, I know how to take care of myself, and I know how to be happy. I’m having fun and I’ve made friends that reminds me a lot of everything I love. I guess I wasn’t open to being friends with people in the beginning and I just didn’t care. I was afraid of not knowing anyone since I have never experienced it before but I’m starting to understand why I made this decision in the first place.

College isn’t how it looks on tv.

I have came to accept the distance between Cristian and I. I know everything is going to workout and we are going to be together no matter what. The little fights mean nothing to me. I can get over them and know it’s simply because we miss each other. I can’t wait to see him and I just wish all the people I’ve became close with will get to know him and he will get to know them. He really means the world to me. I just hope he knows how much I miss and love him.